Inside

Please don't make me
go out of my room.
I'm scared,
People pick on each other
and gossip, saying hurtful things.
I could handle it,
but I'd rather just
hide inside my room.
inside myself.

The Cold

He said he loved me
and oh, how I fell for him,
but when he got to know me,
he changed his mind.
It felt like he took a dagger
made of ice
and stuck it in my chest.
leaving a big, cold, hole in my chest.
I have never riskes love again.
I used to think that I ruined his life,
but in reality he ruined mine.
It took me forty years to realize
that I was angry.
Maybe the heat of anger
can help me heal.

Socializing

I grew up thinking I was
the least talkative,
the most bashful and shy
to the extreme.

When I shared that
the response was that
many people feel the same way.

Surprisingly,
some people who I thought
were gregarious socialites
thought they had no friends.
They too thought they were shy.

Could it be that I am really outgoing.

A Single Cell

I started out as a single cell from my mother,
joined with a single cell from my father.
The cells held genes that make me uniquely me.
I have always wondered why I am me.
I have some talents and some xhortcomings.
Why didn't I ever marry
or have children?
Why was I born with tendancies
to physical and mental illness.
Did my spirit choose my body, my genes
If I had a chance to choose
to be someone else.
Honestly,
I think I would like that.

Surviving the River

We had been taken by the current down the river.
My friend grabbed my arm.
In fear she hung on tight,
so tight it hurt. I let her hang on.
The water was cold and fast.
The boulders rumbled as they
bumped together.
She kept hanging on..

Being weak and tired
I knew that if she continued
to hang on to me,
we would both be taken downstream,
Never to return.
I could have pryed her loose
to save myself,
but I wanted her to be safe also...

I would teach her to stay afloat
by herself.
Then we could each save ourselves.

Hi!

Hi! I'm schizophrenic.  Glad to meet you.  I'm depressed.  My friend is a borderline personality.  I'd like you to meet anxiety.  He's hyperactuve.  Well, what about me? I'm agoraphobic.
I am diabetic, meet cancer and heart disease.

Now that you've met all my personalities let's end with cardiac arrest..