Dark

When I was a young girl
I tried to imagine my future.
All I could see was darkness.
I was afraid.
As I grew into that adulthood
Which I had wondered about,
I handled many situations

The darkness, a shadow
That incircled me
Like a disease, grew,
Until it surrounded me.
I was confused
Preoccupied with the talking and thoughts
In my head,
I didn't know if it was day or night.

As I try to imagine my life
In the hereafter,
I see the same darkness that
Frightened me when I was young,
Even though whenever I have come close
To going to the other side,
Either by illness or action,
I have experienced a peace
Greater than any peace
I have ever known before.