Waiting

Waiting
For a diamond ring
A kiss
A wedding day
Nine months waiting
A baby on it's way

For decades I sat waiting 
patiently, anxiously for
Something that never happened.
I don't know what to wait for
anymore.

Caress

My body was limp,
like a plant never watered
Bent, Leaning toward the light.

A man caressed me and
I felt like a garden finally being watered.
The absorbing moisture
Puffed my face, 
Straightened my fingers and
Made me smile.

I've lived through drought and famine.
Feeling like a deflated balloon.
A simple touch or caress
Would fill my soul.

We Could Be Friends

You might like me.
I'm smart and thoughtful.
We can laugh, joke and play
Gossip and
Share,
Things that only good friends
Share
I'm hoping you will be my friend
Even after you discover
How crazy I really am.

What Sisters Are For

Running through the house
Play with me, Jan
Yvonne, What does rape mean?
Help me make a cake.
Marlene, play me a song.
You're supposed to pay attention,
Entertain me and 
teach me things I don't understand.
Sisters are for kissing me better.

As grown women you still support me.
My bumps and my bruises
Not your fault.

You wrap me in a warm blanket
and caress me
As I tremble.

Covered With Guew

All my feelings are running over,
Trying to hide, trying to deny
Trying to turn into a rock,
that remains strong
no matter what.

Here I stand
Covered in guew,
Slimy, Sticky, Sharp
with points that poke me.

How will this ever end?

I Wanna Be Loud

I'm tired of being alone
with my thoughts.
Your words flow easily
While mine are scattered
skipping inside my head.
Occasionally sticking my words 
between yours.
Nobody hears me.
I've been cursed with a 
soft voice and a shy spirit.
Although I am too quiet 
to be heard
I am rumbling inside
like an active volcano.

Don't Touch

Living in the cold
Never being held
Starving for affection
yet refusing
and accusing 
Phony people's good will.
Longing for a hug
Beginning to search
for someone who feels.